Day 103 blog
- Feb 11
- 2 min read
This one is probably going to be a little all over the place.
The last few days my energy level has been at zero and my anxiety has been high. It’s that specific kind of anxiety that makes you feel like you have a million things to do and no idea where to start. The pressure feels heavy, even when the reality doesn’t match it.
The crazy thing is, when I actually sit down and think about it, I don’t have that much to do. I have time during my days. I’m not overbooked. I’m not drowning in deadlines. So I don’t fully understand why I get this way sometimes.
I’m a very organized, detailed, planning type of person. I like structure. I like clarity. I like knowing what’s next. So when my mind feels scattered for no obvious reason, it frustrates me. It makes me question myself. It makes simple tasks feel bigger than they are.
It’s hard to push through my days when I feel like this. Even writing this blog the last few days has felt like a chore. But I know I need to do it. I made a goal to write every day for a year, and I’m doing it. I don’t want to quit just because I don’t feel like it. Discipline over feelings.
Tonight I went to church with my grandma, and it was calming. Just sitting there, slowing down, being present. No pressure to perform. No expectations. Just a moment to breathe.
Maybe that’s what this season is teaching me. Not everything needs to be solved immediately. Not every feeling needs to be analyzed to death. Sometimes anxiety isn’t about the workload. Sometimes it’s about internal pressure we quietly put on ourselves.
I think I need to extend myself a little more grace. I hold myself to high standards, which is not a bad thing, but I also need to remember that I’m human. Rest is productive. Slowing down is not failure. Feeling off for a few days does not erase progress.
If you’re in a similar place, feeling overwhelmed without a clear reason, maybe this is your reminder too. Pause. Breathe. Do one small thing. Then another. That’s enough.
Tomorrow is a new day. And I’m still showing up.
Signed, Paulina.
I think for a lot of us that keep ourselves busy and productive, it can sometimes keep us stuck in productive mode. That isn’t necessarily and bad thing just something that comes with be a naturally productive person. You are used to always having something to do and occasionally you find yourself with days that are in fact slow but your mind is use to always being on the go so you need to just hit the mental breaks a bit every now and then. There are two sides to everything and this is the other side of being a woman that’s always on the go; sometimes your mind doesn’t stop so YOU have to stop it.
Glad you…